All things must live in darkness before they are born. Seeds sprout underground, hidden in the dirt and animals live either in their mother’s wombs or in eggs until they are ready for the world. Today, the sun doesn’t rise until 9:12am and it will set at 4:16. Candle lighting time is earlier than that, so we will have to pick the kids up from school halfway through their day so that we can prepare for another Shabbos cuddled up for warmth in the RV.
Spiritually also, we are in winter. Our sponsoring Rabbi, due to a lot of different commitments, has been unable to meet with us since before the high holidays. Last weekend, what I had hoped would be a Shabbos of warmth and inspiration was instead an experience of being unwelcome. Our move looms large in our minds and there are days…I’m just not sure how it’s all going to work out.
There is nothing left but to trust that spring will come in its time and that we will make it through this winter to brighter days.
We take our vitamin D and try to get outside when there is light. We bundle up and lean on each other. And we daven. Only Hashem can bring the light back and only He can prepare us for our new lives.