I used to be a big U2 fan. I'll freely admit that as a child of the 80's, I was listening to U2 well into the 90's. One of their songs that always stuck with me was the song, "Walk On," particularly the lyrics about "all that you can't leave behind" and the idea of … Continue reading All That You Can’t Leave Behind
Passover must always fall in the spring. It's a rule of the Jewish calendar and a whole leap month will be added to the calendar to make sure this happens. For Orthodox Jews, this also means that Passover cleaning is a form of spring cleaning, with cabinets cleared out and all manner of pasta, flour, … Continue reading The Season of Letting Go
I have a couple of really wise friends that I listen to and always learn something from our conversations. Today, we were talking about the power of teachability and it seemed to fit exactly with a lot of what has been going on in my life recently as well as struggles I have seen around … Continue reading Teachability, Conversion, and Life
"April," he promised again and again his words became a mantra a lifeline in dark places we clung to April as our life raft Life spun us around in riptides April became the rope tied to the shore we saw the shore grow closer the other side of the water became clearer our eyes full … Continue reading April
This morning, I saw a particularly timely cartoon come across my Facebook feed. When something goes wrong in your life, just yell, "PLOT TWIST," and move on! My life has been full of plot twists. Interestingly, I've always, in the moment, reflected on the fact that bad news, or a major life change, never seems … Continue reading Plot Twist!
Orthodox Jewish conversion has a lot of fascinating quirks that a lot of people aren't aware of unless they've dealt with the process directly. One of them, which I mentioned in relation to my husband yesterday, is the fact that once you emerge from the Mikvah as an entirely new, Jewish person in the eyes … Continue reading Soon, My Children Will Not Be Mine
When we first began this journey, 7 years ago, a lot of our focus was to hold on to everything we could. I had originally sought conversion and in the midst of beginning that journey with my children, we suddenly found ourselves dealing with my husband's unexpected issues with his own halakhic status. It was … Continue reading What’s in a Name?
Slowly at first, then increasing in speed the light returns to the arctic first weakly, it crawls across the mountains thin rays barely scratching the snow the ravens unaware It sneaks up on me, quietly without fanfare it begins to creep up earlier it meets my days later it takes its leave lingering over sweet … Continue reading The Sun Returns
We are deep in the midst of selling our home, with our house having been on the market for almost a week. It's a tough time to sell a house in Alaska, with a local recession adding to buyer's worries about interest rates and the economy in general, so we're having to work extra hard … Continue reading Selling a House and Spiritual Housecleaning
When you ask me where to find candles just assuming I must know my heart expands, relaxing my eyes well with tears simply because you counted me among your own When you tell me "Good Shabbos" casually as you walk by just assuming I celebrate it not asking me if I can break it for … Continue reading When You Treat Me Like You
I'm still thinking about what I would like to do with this blog and how it might be useful, but setting that aside for a moment, I do feel like it's important to give my friends here some updates on where our family is at as far as the conversion process and the big move. … Continue reading Peeking Through the Door
It's almost been a year now since I began this blog. At the time, I began it because I didn't see a lot of conversion stories being told, at least not being told in detail with all the complexity involved. I also didn't see a lot of resources for prospective Orthodox Jewish converts out there … Continue reading Reconsidering The Blog